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[leejooheon]

 i had a really shitty experience today. it was my aunt's birthday, so there was a small family gathering for it. i don't enjoy attending to these things, it's just not the context i like to socialize in and i only attend out of respect. so i'm pretty withdrawn during them, and occasionally people point it out. except today they REALLY pointed it out. over and over again people were commenting on the fact that i'm "too serious" and joking about me not wanting to talk to anyone. i felt uncomfortable and was visibly tense throughout all this, but they still wouldn't budge.

what's worse is people kept pointing out that i don't drink and insisting that i should. again, they kept being super pushy and joking about this despite me obviously not reacting well to these jokes. i felt very judged. ugh. i talk to my therapist tomorrow so she gets to hear me complain about this.