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Apr. 24th, 2024 03:13 amI've been reading the Death Note manga again. It has been a lot of fun but I've found myself sort of... overanalyzing my enjoyment, I guess. Which just makes it so that I dont enjoy it at all.
I think this is for a few reasons:
1. My brain loves to do this when it comes to things that mean a lot to me. I'm not sure why, but my mind loves going "is this actually as good as you remember it" and it's frustrating. Death Note is a story that means a lot to me. I've been a fan since I was a child, and I met most of my current friends because of it. My online name, Nero, comes from an old Death Note themed username of mine. Because my brain likes to target things I have a strong attachment to, it makes sense DN would be one of them.
2. I may be going through the story too fast. In only 2 days I've read about 30+ volumes. DN is a complex story, with lots of subtle characterization and interesting themes. Something like that is perhaps best enjoyed by taking your time. I think rushing through it may be affecting my perception of the story.
3. Most of my old DN fandom friends are not as into it as they used to be, so I feel like I have no one to share this with.
Granted, I've still been having fun. The reason I have been reading it so fast is because of how exciting the story is. But I think all of this is making me feel like I'm not connecting with the story like I should. So I think I'm going to start over, this time taking my time and maybe writing down notes along the way to feel more engaged.
I think this is for a few reasons:
1. My brain loves to do this when it comes to things that mean a lot to me. I'm not sure why, but my mind loves going "is this actually as good as you remember it" and it's frustrating. Death Note is a story that means a lot to me. I've been a fan since I was a child, and I met most of my current friends because of it. My online name, Nero, comes from an old Death Note themed username of mine. Because my brain likes to target things I have a strong attachment to, it makes sense DN would be one of them.
2. I may be going through the story too fast. In only 2 days I've read about 30+ volumes. DN is a complex story, with lots of subtle characterization and interesting themes. Something like that is perhaps best enjoyed by taking your time. I think rushing through it may be affecting my perception of the story.
3. Most of my old DN fandom friends are not as into it as they used to be, so I feel like I have no one to share this with.
Granted, I've still been having fun. The reason I have been reading it so fast is because of how exciting the story is. But I think all of this is making me feel like I'm not connecting with the story like I should. So I think I'm going to start over, this time taking my time and maybe writing down notes along the way to feel more engaged.
