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my ocd has reached a very debilitating state. anyway, im just here to vent about it. here is my current theme: if i feel attached to works of fiction, or fictional characters specifically, it must be because i think theyre real, therefore i must be delusional/everyone is somewhat psychotic for engaging with fantasy and we just dont realize.

ive realized the fear has to do with immersion while awake specifically. dreams arent very scary for now. i get freaked out by the middle ground that is fiction and daydreaming. im awake, so i should be acting logically, but im not, therefore something is wrong.

currently im triggered by depictions of fictional characters, tv, movies, music (because it can cause daydreams) and by my own fantasies. i dont like for the lines between reality and fiction to become blurried, it makes me feel like im bordering on insanity. 

anyway. hopefully i find a solution??