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I'm trying to sleep, but I just have a lot on my mind and I thought writing about it would help clear my head.
I have a really weird relationship to my hyperfixations. I would say for me there are different kinds of hyperfixations.
There are the "casual" ones. They last for about a month or two, and while I often continue to be interested in them after the hyperfixation is over, I often don't reach that same level of passion again.
And then there are the long term, intense ones. These are the hyperfixations that, even if I stop obsessing over them for a period of time, they always return. These are pretty weird because I can go through periods of time where I am not really "into them" but you can very easily make me get excited about them by simply mentioning them. After the excitement is done, I return to not really thinking about it. That is, until a few months down the line I start hyperfixating on it again.
For the past three years, I've been hyperfixating on the same three things. These are the long term hyperfixations, and this time they just so happened to start at the same time. But now I'm back to the period where I'm not really thinking about it anymore, and I feel annoyed. My brain isn't used to not having something to obsess about.
I've started hyperfixating on something else recently, but here's the other issue. I've been really struggling to balance out my hyperfixation with my daily life, and that just really irritates me? I feel like I need to indulge in my fixations to keep myself sane, but lately it feels very hard to do that in a way that satisfies me.
I have a really weird relationship to my hyperfixations. I would say for me there are different kinds of hyperfixations.
There are the "casual" ones. They last for about a month or two, and while I often continue to be interested in them after the hyperfixation is over, I often don't reach that same level of passion again.
And then there are the long term, intense ones. These are the hyperfixations that, even if I stop obsessing over them for a period of time, they always return. These are pretty weird because I can go through periods of time where I am not really "into them" but you can very easily make me get excited about them by simply mentioning them. After the excitement is done, I return to not really thinking about it. That is, until a few months down the line I start hyperfixating on it again.
For the past three years, I've been hyperfixating on the same three things. These are the long term hyperfixations, and this time they just so happened to start at the same time. But now I'm back to the period where I'm not really thinking about it anymore, and I feel annoyed. My brain isn't used to not having something to obsess about.
I've started hyperfixating on something else recently, but here's the other issue. I've been really struggling to balance out my hyperfixation with my daily life, and that just really irritates me? I feel like I need to indulge in my fixations to keep myself sane, but lately it feels very hard to do that in a way that satisfies me.
