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Jul. 16th, 2026 10:16 pm I've been really going through it emotionally, as you can probably see from my recent posts. Life has just been weird, but also today I got my period which explains why it's been soooo intense.
But I feel like my head is clearer now. So here's a more coherent post.
Yes, I'm very upset by the slow realization some of the stuff that happened to me as a kid probably qualifies as covert incest/non physical sexual abuse. Just writing about it makes my skin crawl. But I'm no longer about to have a panic attack over it. I can hold on until my next therapy appointment. It's just gonna be really hard to talk about.
I've been feeling incredibly lonely but I'm coping a little better with it. No, I'm not doomed to die alone, I'm just in a position where friendships are a bit trickier. And it's okay to take some time figuring it out.
I watched two more movies this week and I want to talk about them.
Humanist Vampire Seeking Consenting Suicidal Person: Very fun and cute. However, I found myself a bit underwhelmed by it because I think it really wasted the opportunity to have some interesting commentary about suicidal ideation, which was soooo easy to make and I almost thought rhat's where it was going. But I think as a fantasy for depressed people it works.
I hate myself :) : This documentary pissed me off. It has an interesting premise but then it just wastes it by having nothing interesting to say. I could probably say something more about it, but it was just so obnoxious, I find it hard to put into words how much it bothered me lol.
But I feel like my head is clearer now. So here's a more coherent post.
Yes, I'm very upset by the slow realization some of the stuff that happened to me as a kid probably qualifies as covert incest/non physical sexual abuse. Just writing about it makes my skin crawl. But I'm no longer about to have a panic attack over it. I can hold on until my next therapy appointment. It's just gonna be really hard to talk about.
I've been feeling incredibly lonely but I'm coping a little better with it. No, I'm not doomed to die alone, I'm just in a position where friendships are a bit trickier. And it's okay to take some time figuring it out.
I watched two more movies this week and I want to talk about them.
Humanist Vampire Seeking Consenting Suicidal Person: Very fun and cute. However, I found myself a bit underwhelmed by it because I think it really wasted the opportunity to have some interesting commentary about suicidal ideation, which was soooo easy to make and I almost thought rhat's where it was going. But I think as a fantasy for depressed people it works.
I hate myself :) : This documentary pissed me off. It has an interesting premise but then it just wastes it by having nothing interesting to say. I could probably say something more about it, but it was just so obnoxious, I find it hard to put into words how much it bothered me lol.
