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so i've been thinking more about the situation with my sister, and talked about it with other people. and i've come to a conclusion.
i think the reason she's been becoming somewhat extremist about her religious beliefs. for context, much like me, my sister is very mentally ill and has been for most of her life. and these past few years i've watched her make decisions that i don't think are good for herself. her obsession with religion is a coping mechanism from what she has told me.
now to be clear i am NOT against religion. believe what you want to believe. my problem is when you start becoming intolerant because of it, which she is, and it's particularly concerning because it goes against everything she's ever believed.
i think my sister genuinely feels like dedicating herself entirely to religion is going to fix her life and like it is the only way to find happiness. therefore she believes it is the only way i will find happiness.
i think, if there is any chance she'll snap out of that, is if she's forced to question this belief. so here's my goal.
i want to become a more stable person this year. i think so much of what has pushed her to this is the fact that no one around us has a good, healthy life. and so now she feels like this is the only way. however, if she had a close of example of someone who can form healthy relationships and is just generally stable, i think that might make her feel like there are other ways to become happy that don't involve being intolerant.
i want to become stable for myself, because i think i deserve happiness. but i think this gives me another motivation to keep pushing myself. i also do want to be clear that i don't plan to make myself responsible for her, i understand that she is her own person and that i can't dedicate myself to be her savior, so that's not what i'm going for. but i do want to at least TRY and be source of stability in her life.
i think the reason she's been becoming somewhat extremist about her religious beliefs. for context, much like me, my sister is very mentally ill and has been for most of her life. and these past few years i've watched her make decisions that i don't think are good for herself. her obsession with religion is a coping mechanism from what she has told me.
now to be clear i am NOT against religion. believe what you want to believe. my problem is when you start becoming intolerant because of it, which she is, and it's particularly concerning because it goes against everything she's ever believed.
i think my sister genuinely feels like dedicating herself entirely to religion is going to fix her life and like it is the only way to find happiness. therefore she believes it is the only way i will find happiness.
i think, if there is any chance she'll snap out of that, is if she's forced to question this belief. so here's my goal.
i want to become a more stable person this year. i think so much of what has pushed her to this is the fact that no one around us has a good, healthy life. and so now she feels like this is the only way. however, if she had a close of example of someone who can form healthy relationships and is just generally stable, i think that might make her feel like there are other ways to become happy that don't involve being intolerant.
i want to become stable for myself, because i think i deserve happiness. but i think this gives me another motivation to keep pushing myself. i also do want to be clear that i don't plan to make myself responsible for her, i understand that she is her own person and that i can't dedicate myself to be her savior, so that's not what i'm going for. but i do want to at least TRY and be source of stability in her life.
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Date: 2024-02-17 12:23 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2024-02-18 04:11 pm (UTC)From:I completely agree with you here!
i do want to at least TRY and be source of stability in her life.
That's very sweet of you, actually. I also want to emphasize that I am glad you don't want to be "her savior" and that you know that you deserve happiness. That's a great thing to realize because unfortunately so many mentally ill people don't think so :(
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Date: 2024-02-18 09:09 pm (UTC)From: