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Stuff has been kinda weird for me lately. I feel undeniably better aftee that recent mental downspiral but I'm still not 100% up to normal. I do feel much better though and way more motivated.
I'm trying my best to get back to my usual routine but also add new things to it that I have been meaning to include. For example, I want to start reading. When I was a kid I used to love reading, but as I got older it became more of a chore and less something I enjoyed. I feel like the way it was pushed on me sucked a lot of the joy out of it, and it became a weird source of anxiety. After a certain point I stopped reading because I felt like I wasn't good enough for it.
But I'm trying to move past those thoughts. I really do want to fall in love with reading again. I downloaded storygraph so that I can track my reading and I've added a bunch of books to my to read pile. We'll see how that goes! Hopefully good?
I feel really overwhelmed because there is so much I want to do, and so much I have to do and it feels like I never have enough time for it. I'm unsure of what the solution is, but I'll keep looking for one.
I'm trying my best to get back to my usual routine but also add new things to it that I have been meaning to include. For example, I want to start reading. When I was a kid I used to love reading, but as I got older it became more of a chore and less something I enjoyed. I feel like the way it was pushed on me sucked a lot of the joy out of it, and it became a weird source of anxiety. After a certain point I stopped reading because I felt like I wasn't good enough for it.
But I'm trying to move past those thoughts. I really do want to fall in love with reading again. I downloaded storygraph so that I can track my reading and I've added a bunch of books to my to read pile. We'll see how that goes! Hopefully good?
I feel really overwhelmed because there is so much I want to do, and so much I have to do and it feels like I never have enough time for it. I'm unsure of what the solution is, but I'll keep looking for one.
