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I can't sleep, for some reason. It's 5am and I'm genuinely pretty tired but oh well. I feel weirdly anxious, and I figured this would be a good way to get my thoughts in order. Maybe that'll make me tired.
I'm very anxious about all the stuff I have to do! I will need to sort some school paperwork soon and the thought makes me want to scream. My social anxiety is pretty bad.
Other than that, I feel overwhelmed by all the studying I have to do. I sort of stopped doing anything productive the last few weeks and now I need to pull myself out of that cycle and get my shit together. Again.
I also have some pretty big conversations to have with my sister, I just haven't had any time alone with her so it hasn't worked out. Hopefully soon?
But it's not all bad! I have a little project I'm working on. I want to start a youtube channel and I'm pretty excited about setting that in motion. It would probably be super low quality but who cares, I feel motivated to do something for the first time in a while.
I also very much intend to start teaching myself korean somehow, and I did tell my psychiatrist I would get started on that before my next appointment with her so... I better keep that promise unless I want to embarrass myself. I also told her I would have my sleep schedule fixed by then and I'm doing a horrible job of that. It's alright, I'll get there.
I've been also thinking about all the shows and books I so badly want to get into. It's so hard balancing that giant list of things I want to check out with my pre existing hyperfixations. I swear it was easier when I was younger.
That's it for today. Nothing interesting, just disjointed 5am thoughts.
I'm very anxious about all the stuff I have to do! I will need to sort some school paperwork soon and the thought makes me want to scream. My social anxiety is pretty bad.
Other than that, I feel overwhelmed by all the studying I have to do. I sort of stopped doing anything productive the last few weeks and now I need to pull myself out of that cycle and get my shit together. Again.
I also have some pretty big conversations to have with my sister, I just haven't had any time alone with her so it hasn't worked out. Hopefully soon?
But it's not all bad! I have a little project I'm working on. I want to start a youtube channel and I'm pretty excited about setting that in motion. It would probably be super low quality but who cares, I feel motivated to do something for the first time in a while.
I also very much intend to start teaching myself korean somehow, and I did tell my psychiatrist I would get started on that before my next appointment with her so... I better keep that promise unless I want to embarrass myself. I also told her I would have my sleep schedule fixed by then and I'm doing a horrible job of that. It's alright, I'll get there.
I've been also thinking about all the shows and books I so badly want to get into. It's so hard balancing that giant list of things I want to check out with my pre existing hyperfixations. I swear it was easier when I was younger.
That's it for today. Nothing interesting, just disjointed 5am thoughts.
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Date: 2023-10-14 12:42 pm (UTC)From:Another even more tricky trick question came from my calculus professor second semester of senior year. If you have a circular piece of paper and you want to make a cone-shaped cup out of it, how much do you cut out of the paper for maximum volume of the cup? Prof. Wong eventually told us that that was a very hard piece of math (and gave us the answer).
That was also the closest I got to failing a class. I got credit for it, but just barely. It think it was a C-.